[ Not even a note of protest. Even without seeing the truth under her words, the tone of her voice couldn't be more transparent of a plea for more.
She'd said that the first time as well, hadn't she? She remembers. The pinch of his teeth at her throat, the shameful noises that'd come spilling out of her mouth with each bite. She remembers showering the next day - night - however long it'd taken them to exhaust each other, counting the bruises and bitemarks, huffing to herself that he was so inconsiderate... and feeling her heart stumble over each one even so. This proof, printed onto her skin, of how badly somebody had wanted her.
They called it mana transfer long past the point that either of them had even pretended to believe that's what they were still doing. Maybe once or twice, he's mockingly disarmed her by reminding her that it's just sex. Neither of them have ever been quite so foolish as to admit it's lovemaking.
But Ai knows the difference.
She's greedy. Dirty. Hateful and selfish. The worst kind of lying, faking human. Some days, she barely even feels like she deserves to be called a human full stop.
Maybe that's why she's never gotten any of it right. Maybe all this time, everything else has just been for practice.
Maybe all this time, she was waiting for him to find her. ]
Oberon.Vortigern. [ Whichever one. Either. Both. All of him. Just so long as it's him. ] Doitproperly.Touchme.Pleaseloveme.
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[ Not even a note of protest. Even without seeing the truth under her words, the tone of her voice couldn't be more transparent of a plea for more.
She'd said that the first time as well, hadn't she? She remembers. The pinch of his teeth at her throat, the shameful noises that'd come spilling out of her mouth with each bite. She remembers showering the next day - night - however long it'd taken them to exhaust each other, counting the bruises and bitemarks, huffing to herself that he was so inconsiderate... and feeling her heart stumble over each one even so. This proof, printed onto her skin, of how badly somebody had wanted her.
They called it mana transfer long past the point that either of them had even pretended to believe that's what they were still doing. Maybe once or twice, he's mockingly disarmed her by reminding her that it's just sex. Neither of them have ever been quite so foolish as to admit it's lovemaking.
But Ai knows the difference.
She's greedy. Dirty. Hateful and selfish. The worst kind of lying, faking human. Some days, she barely even feels like she deserves to be called a human full stop.
Maybe that's why she's never gotten any of it right. Maybe all this time, everything else has just been for practice.
Maybe all this time, she was waiting for him to find her. ]
Oberon. Vortigern. [ Whichever one. Either. Both. All of him. Just so long as it's him. ] Do it properly. Touch me. Please love me.