[ It's not the first time Ai's heard those words. Behind confessions of love, it's the thing gachikoi groups like B-Komachi hear more than anything else from fans. That sort of devotion is exactly what they're supposed to inspire, but Ai isn't naive enough to think that any of them ever really mean it.
That boy had said it too and maybe he'd meant it - but he hadn't understood it. And that was fine - Ai certainly hadn't understood what marriage was supposed to be back then either. But she was certain that it wasn't anything like the way he'd wanted it, a world comprised of only two people with just enough space to lick each others' wounds. There was no place in a world like that for the babies in her belly and so she'd rejected him, blithely and without a thought.
She had said yes to Rinne in much the same way - thoughtlessly, too overwhelmed by stirred up sensation and feelings to even try thinking about it. And maybe that had been fine for the way Rinne had asked her then, but when he asks her like this, so achingly sincere it makes her chest clench, asking it when he means it, when he knows full well what he's asking and who he's asking, that she's dirty and timid, irresponsible and impure...
Ah. she thinks to herself as she holds his gaze. I really do love him so much.
Her hand doesn't leave his and it's such an awkward position but she absolutely can't help herself. Ai leans in and, with her free arm wrapped around him, hugs him. Tight. ]
I want that. So much that it's scaring me... but the idea of not having it scares me even more. [ From this angle, he won't be able to see her face... but the way her voice wavers and hitches can't be mistaken for anything but tears. ] So let's do it. Whenever anything's hurting, whenever anything's too heavy to carry on your own, let's carry it together. Let's be a family, Rinne-kun.
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That boy had said it too and maybe he'd meant it - but he hadn't understood it. And that was fine - Ai certainly hadn't understood what marriage was supposed to be back then either. But she was certain that it wasn't anything like the way he'd wanted it, a world comprised of only two people with just enough space to lick each others' wounds. There was no place in a world like that for the babies in her belly and so she'd rejected him, blithely and without a thought.
She had said yes to Rinne in much the same way - thoughtlessly, too overwhelmed by stirred up sensation and feelings to even try thinking about it. And maybe that had been fine for the way Rinne had asked her then, but when he asks her like this, so achingly sincere it makes her chest clench, asking it when he means it, when he knows full well what he's asking and who he's asking, that she's dirty and timid, irresponsible and impure...
Ah. she thinks to herself as she holds his gaze. I really do love him so much.
Her hand doesn't leave his and it's such an awkward position but she absolutely can't help herself. Ai leans in and, with her free arm wrapped around him, hugs him. Tight. ]
I want that. So much that it's scaring me... but the idea of not having it scares me even more. [ From this angle, he won't be able to see her face... but the way her voice wavers and hitches can't be mistaken for anything but tears. ] So let's do it. Whenever anything's hurting, whenever anything's too heavy to carry on your own, let's carry it together. Let's be a family, Rinne-kun.