[ "- want normal" is what she means to say but the words go dry in her throat before they can make it the rest of the way out. Because... that had been what she'd wanted. Right? An excuse to pretend that nothing had happened. Like part of her heart hadn't cracked open in his hands and bled all over him. Like he hadn't just let it happen. He's given her exactly what she'd asked for and now that she's being faced with it, she can't stand it.
Don't hate me. Don't touch me. Don't hurt me. Don't be kind to me.
"Decide on what you want already, damn it."
I don't know. Sorry. I've never been able to figure that out either. ]
... Maybe I did want that. Maybe I still do, but- this... isn't normal for us.
[ Us. It comes out more damning that she means it to. But it's the truth all the same. Whatever this bond is, forced on them by circumstance as it is, it's still a bond all the same. There's a person on the other end she'd started to think she could understand and now he's gone.
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[ "- want normal" is what she means to say but the words go dry in her throat before they can make it the rest of the way out. Because... that had been what she'd wanted. Right? An excuse to pretend that nothing had happened. Like part of her heart hadn't cracked open in his hands and bled all over him. Like he hadn't just let it happen. He's given her exactly what she'd asked for and now that she's being faced with it, she can't stand it.
Don't hate me. Don't touch me. Don't hurt me. Don't be kind to me.
"Decide on what you want already, damn it."
I don't know. Sorry. I've never been able to figure that out either. ]
... Maybe I did want that. Maybe I still do, but- this... isn't normal for us.
[ Us. It comes out more damning that she means it to. But it's the truth all the same. Whatever this bond is, forced on them by circumstance as it is, it's still a bond all the same. There's a person on the other end she'd started to think she could understand and now he's gone.
How could that possibly be 'normal'? ]