[ ... A sigh flutes out of her, somehow embarrassed, fond and resigned all at once. ]
Well, that explains it.
[ Then, pre-empting the question which would surely follow; ]
I couldn't stand how you looked at me at first. Or I guess... I couldn't stand how I felt when you did. It was like you were just seeing all the things about me I hate and I used to get scared. Like, "ah, what exactly must he be seeing to make me feel like that?" [ Another soft breath, almost a laugh. ] But I guess that was all on me. If you were seeing the real me, no wonder it made me so sick.
[ "After all, I've always hated her."
Another big dramatic sigh and matching attempt to play her words off as a joke; ]
I'm definitely taking all the wrong lessons from this, but I'm kind of jealous. [ it comes out more bitter than she means it to. ] It sounds exhausting but being able to just understand people's feelings like that... It'd sure solve a lot of my problems.
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Well, that explains it.
[ Then, pre-empting the question which would surely follow; ]
I couldn't stand how you looked at me at first. Or I guess... I couldn't stand how I felt when you did. It was like you were just seeing all the things about me I hate and I used to get scared. Like, "ah, what exactly must he be seeing to make me feel like that?" [ Another soft breath, almost a laugh. ] But I guess that was all on me. If you were seeing the real me, no wonder it made me so sick.
[ "After all, I've always hated her."
Another big dramatic sigh and matching attempt to play her words off as a joke; ]
I'm definitely taking all the wrong lessons from this, but I'm kind of jealous. [ it comes out more bitter than she means it to. ] It sounds exhausting but being able to just understand people's feelings like that... It'd sure solve a lot of my problems.