[ A little laugh puffs out of her, gently ruffling his hair. ]
Is it gonna sound really bad if I admit I'm not sure either? It's not that I haven't tried to think about it, but...
[ Her guts twist a little. For a second, her abdomen throbs around the imagined intrusion of a knife. ]
I guess I haven't been able to imagine it yet. Whenever I think about going back, all I can imagine is not opening that door. Or putting on the chain lock - or calling the cops or whatever I need to do to get it right this time. I can't even start to think about what comes after.
[ One of her fingers is still curling a lock of his hair but then she lets go - puts her arms around his neck to hug him properly. ]
Just getting to go back already feels like I'm asking too much. Anything else on top of that is a bonus. But if I can be really greedy... I want this, too. The way we are when it's the two of us. I want to be an idol and a mom and yours all at the same time.
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Is it gonna sound really bad if I admit I'm not sure either? It's not that I haven't tried to think about it, but...
[ Her guts twist a little. For a second, her abdomen throbs around the imagined intrusion of a knife. ]
I guess I haven't been able to imagine it yet. Whenever I think about going back, all I can imagine is not opening that door. Or putting on the chain lock - or calling the cops or whatever I need to do to get it right this time. I can't even start to think about what comes after.
[ One of her fingers is still curling a lock of his hair but then she lets go - puts her arms around his neck to hug him properly. ]
Just getting to go back already feels like I'm asking too much. Anything else on top of that is a bonus. But if I can be really greedy... I want this, too. The way we are when it's the two of us. I want to be an idol and a mom and yours all at the same time.